I Never Saw It Coming

I was used to the struggle, the suffering,

the pain and disappointments that life kicked out.

I thought it was expected to feel neglected,

rejected and best to just accept it

than let hope replace doubt.


To once have - then lose - the hugging,

the loving, seeing the fun in this life as others live it now…

To have had that intimacy

when a brother was into me, digging me,

may have thrown me for a loop somehow.


But I didn’t see it coming:

my heart jumping and humming

like a drum

in the wrong place

in the middle of a musical score.


It was totally unexpected

that I could feel this rested,

free to just let it – let me just express it

– my soul drifting out to sea

but always coming back to shore.




Through soul-searching and self-discovery,

I uncovered me.

Though first unwilling,

I find it thrilling

living independently.


My reliance just on One,

not his earthly sons,

but on Him who cares,

shares and repairs

what broke inside…


I found strength in my aloneness;

it took some boldness

but now I own it

and have no cause to hide.


I went inside myself and came out flying,

determined and trying

to let go, make a difference,

start anew and do something.


I found my voice.

I had no choice

to go it alone,

but with Jah’s help,

I found my home

and I never saw it coming!


(For my Monica, with love

Baci ed abbracci, Adrienne)

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